Sunday, April 29, 2012

Spiritual Sunday....

I have been thinking a lot about contentment lately. With all of the things that I have been going through, it just wants me to let things go and let them just be. Not worry about what I should wear, how much I should weigh, or constantly looking for the newest, greatest, thing. Just doing what makes me happy. I looked up the meaning of contentment and it says: the state of being contented; satisfaction; ease of mind. Synonyms of contentment are: gratified, pleased, happy.

I did some cross-referencing in the bible and I came up with a verse that I just want to meditate on James 4:2-3: You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. 3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.

When I first read this, I just had to sit back and think about some of the things that I am doing and just think...why?

I am going to really take an inventory of my current choices and ask myself why? But most importantly, is this in God's will and plan for me. I worry about things and compare myself to other people, but why?

Once I reflect on things, I will post another Spiritual Sunday post with my discoveries. I encourage everyone of you to read over the verse and really think about your life. If there is something that you are constantly worrying about or not satisfied with, just be honest with yourself. And ask yourself why? If you want, post it below and the comments.

There is more to come on the topic of contentment!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Not So New Music Monday...

Alright, so I have been slippin' on my bloggin' pimpin', but that is ok. I have been dealing with some family issues. While browsing some of my favorite blogs today I came across a post with a YouTube video with...drum roll please...Every Kanye West song sample ever!

For some of you that don't know, I am huge Kanye West fan!! So much so that I wrote a cover letter comparing us to one another. And no, I am not ashamed to say it.

I'll admit, some of the songs that he sampled, I didn't know. And some of the songs Kanye himself made, I didn't know either. With the range of musical genres really makes me appreciate Kanye's genius even more.

Friday, April 13, 2012

An Ocean of Friends on Facebook...

You all know how I feel about technology and how it has killed communication as we know it. I sat down and really thought about it. I have an ocean of friends on facebook, all of which I know in their own special way, but since facebook has come along I don't feel compelled to call them. It's like I catch up with them through statuses, new pictures, changes in employment, relationship status, and location changes. Its like we are having a drought in verbal communication.

Sure, you can talk through IM, but there is something about being on the phone chit chatting about whatever pops into your head and all you have to do is move your mouth, not your fingers. My corny jokes sound so much better when I tell em, rather than when I type them. You can really hear my compassion for current events through my tone and dictation, not with my punctuation and colorful vocabulary.

Has your ocean of friends dried up? Pick up the phone and give them a call!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

A Drought: Men

'Its been 2 months since I've had a date. This is worst than the drought of 1989. And that was only because I was on vacation in Alabama and refused to date any one named Bookie, Junior, or Baby Brother.'
-Loosely Paraphrased from Regine on Living Single 'Baby I'm Back...Again'

Could I possibly be in drought?!?!? Or is just a chance for me to grow as a person until the right man comes along?

Either way I look at it, which I am trying to be optimistic here, its a drought. To be completely honest, I haven't had one since 19...umh, 1997. Yes, this is the longest that I have gone without having a boo, man, dude that I just kick it with.

Thinking about it, other than the dirtbag that conitinuously stood me up, I havent even so much as talked to a dude since then. No dates. No sex. No affection. No real prospects. Enough, that is almost depressing thinking about it.

So, I am in a drought. Its not the first time and I am sure that there has been some periods since 1997 that I've been in a drought, but I cannot remember them. I am taking this time to reflect on things in my life. For so many years, my life revolved around men and being around them. I was so submissive because I felt like I needed a man for various reasons. I would constantly go from one dude to another, sometimes more than one at a time, looking for something. Something that could possibly fill the void that I was missing. Hoping that the next dude would be the one.

This drought has given me some moments of clarity. I know what I am looking for in a mate and I am not so much willing to settle. But I must admit that I am waiting for it to rain. I mean a soaking rain that will come from no where, downpour, flash flooding. He said that he will and I know that its coming and it may be unexpected, but much appreciated.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Spiritual Sunday

"And the LORD will continually guide you, And satisfy your desire in scorched places, And give strength to your bones; And you will be like a watered garden, And like a spring of water whose waters do not fail"
Isaiah 58:11 (New American Standard Version)

Be sure to read this weeks posts....The droughts.

Hung Him High, Stretched Him Wide...

He has risen. Easter Sunday is one of those days that I spent with my dear aunt Lori. I remember walking from Valley Terrace to Deliverance Temple Church being able to see my breath in the air. She has her bible and tamborine in tow. I was always amazed at my aunt when she played the tamborine; there was some real skills there. Me with my pattened leather shoes,  Easter dress, and how could I forget my small purse with a couple of dollars for offering. When we arrive, I go to Sunday school. When I return from Sunday school the choir is singing a song...the melody I can't really remember only the lyrics: They hung him high, stretched him wide, on the cross for me he died...that's love.

Need I say more? Happy Easter!!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

The 10 Commandements

So, its the night before Easter and I am hard at work doing the following:

Cleaning: I have so much stuff to get rid of that its not even funny! Don't get me started on laundry...that is the problem, I didn't
Cooking: On the menu ham, mac and cheese, and peach cobbler with homemade whipped cream.
Talking on the Phone: Just to friends, catching up.
Looking at TV: The 10 Commandments is on ABC. Possibly the longest movie ever, old as ever, but there is no better way to spend Easter Eve. Random: Did you know that Moses stuttered? I seen that last night on another show.

Today was a good day =) I got to spend time with family and some friends. Paid for my trip to Vegas, yeah!

Friday, April 6, 2012

I Tried So Hard To Love You...

When I went out last Friday, I decided to put on some make-up and since I was still participating in the Protect Ya Ends challenge, make-up was most definitely something that I need. There are my staple eyeshadows that I normally go to depending on how I am feeling and the look that I am going for. Normally, my two MAC eyeshadows or my Jessie's Girl pigment with Indianwood as the base. Last year, I got suckered in to buying the NAKED Palette by Urban Decay.

Urban Decay Naked Palette

Ya'll I honestly tried so hard to love to love this palette, but I just couldn't. Where to start?! When I got it, I went to YouTube and looked at every tutorial that I could. I did the first look. Ok, wasn't too crazy. Nice for everyday. The second time, I tried something with more of a smokey blue eye look. Ok, this is different.

With no exaggeration, those are the only two looks that I can do with it. I mean, for me, every look that I try looks the same. I tried to do something with a little more pink and it looked like shimmer. Tried to do a look with more browns, looked like shimmer. A disclaimer, I used the primer potion--and a cream base. And don't get me started on the fallout and chunks of glitter. Now, it is a good buy for the amount of product that you get, but that is about the only thing that I can really think of that I loved about it.

Sigh. I tried so hard to love you Naked Palette by Urban Decay, but I think that its time for us to break up.

Oh yeah, and I tried my Viva Nicki lipstick and I wasn't really feeling it.....I looked slightly jigg-a-boo-like with it on. Yes, I looked at School Daze a couple days ago.